Lest I forget Ksheera
Some people come into your life for a REASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a reason !I remembered those lines of Ksheera in her blog
"Every single person who is present in our lives is adding his or her own flavor into our lives. Provided our brain is processing & absorbing positive aspects"Our youth empowerment center's chief Raj has familiarized us to many soul stirring beings. One of the souls which got introduced to us was Ksheera. In one of the cool evening hangouts of Raj's house, She introduced herself as: 'I'm Ksheera Bachanna, the fitness trainer'. That's how she came into our life.
This blog is dedicated to the soul searching girl: Ksheera. She had a big grin kind of flawless smile and ever loving curly hairs. And ofcourse enviable peaceful face, lean and healthy body to tell you honestly she was a fitness expert. She was not just another fitness gyaan giving Diva; She surely knew the basics of fitness with human anatomy pretty well. She was trying hard to go out of India & to study fitness program in UK. It was her last dream.
It was in her character. She just couldn’t sleep peacefully without coming into any ones memories. I call it: peace-less soul. In an unimaginable way, Ksheera became the talk of the group. Was that the art of Ksheera ? Did she deliberately choose to be in tip of peoples tongue by whatever the way whoever comes in contact with her?
God and time should tell, because she has vanished into time-immemorial, while driving towards Chennai yesterday night on the lonely, dark highways of Mulubagilu near Kolar.
Ksheera is no more.I'm sure, just to materialize her study plans in UK, she sold whatever she had. In mean time I've heard that her application was rejected due to technical reasons. But she was adamant to pursue her dream so was driving towards Chennai to be there in UK embassy. The UK dream was the final gamble she could ever pull off.
Irony is, the same Raj who introduced her to me; broke the news of her demise as well.
Yesterday night I was fast asleep. In the morning I found a miss call from her cell phone. I thought it's just one more call from her to elaborate her late-night musings. But she was already in the voyage of boarding angels chariot to the never to be returned world...
I'm sure we like, dislike, love, hate, adore, deject people for so many reasons in life. But not when it comes to death. The moment I heard the news of demise of her soul; I was shell shocked. For a while, her ever lasting, husky voice called me with a usual style:
"Jaggee nanmagne".
She was in an immense need of affection. She always use to tell me: "Jaggi I am so lonely kano, I need a company to keep me happy maga, tell me where you are? You make me laugh, let me come to see you".
You call it a twist of fate or irony, on last Saturday we friends met up for a coffee and spoke in length about her. Maybe she was planning her utmost penultimate journey to nowhere, then. Today she has absolutely vapored into thin air. I feel so guilty for not noticing the final call of hers.
For many of our us, Ksheera is one of the humorous, lovely, crazy, crack, giggling, intolerant, disturbed, jokey, funny, confused girl. Who could never be serious of the time she is involved with. Sometime she paints the picture of an adolescent kid but not feelings she wrote in her blogs. You should read her blogs to know her mindset. There's some kind of unique magic running through those words.
Read her thoughts, feelings & musings here :
"It's very late at night of 14th. I'm just back from visiting her final journey. She is sleeping with such a eternal peace and bliss. May her soul rest in peace. If there's anything called reincarnation; let all her dreams, aspirations come true. I respect a girl, a determined lonely soul, which fought hard to survive in such a fierce, competitive & demanding world."
Some lovely photos of Ksheera taken by her friend, photographer -Dev.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/debu_4/3926106155/in/photostream/
(update - 3rd Dec, 2009)
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8 comments:
Really sorry to hear about your friend Jagga.
Hope she finds peace and happiness.
-Tanu
this was the biggesat shocker to me! we had spent some lovely time together in ART OF LIVING, my consolence to her family and friends. MAY HER SOUL REST IN PEACE.
hey,
this was a big shock to me, still cannot accept it. met this 'full of life' girl in ART OF LIVING, shared some of the most emotional and fun filled moments with her.
Ksheera - the name's so unique, so was she. She 'll always be remembered. 'll miss her. may her soul rest in peace.
I did not know this person but I share your sense of loss. It is never easy putting behind a memory so unique. I join you and your friends in paying my humble respects to Ksheera.
May she find peace in His ever forgiving arms.
SK
It's just been 3 months since i met her, however, we have had some fruitful discussions on fitness,music,arts all of which she was extremely passionate about. I remember vividly the way she told me how she evolved over a period of time spiritually. It is really hard and tough to believe that this charming girl whose presence was so subtle is no more with us.
My condolences and prayers to her & her family.
May Her Soul Rest In Peace.
Gishnu
The comments i am leaving now is for a lady called 'Ksheera' for you but she is the same old 'Hemamalini' yes true it was her real name, she was like any other girl next door, i was one of the person shared a lil bit of space in her life for 3 or more years, i mean during our high school days, everyday i used to visit her place on the way to bustop,Hema was very disciplined at the same time lazy, she used to search for her school uniform when i knocked at her door. we both were traveling together to school, shared same BMTC bus, sometimes breakfast even the throw ball at the school play ground which she had, i was 2yrs junior to her in school.
After school again we met was after her graduation and was in transit of getting a job, we both registered at one of the Aerobics school at malleshwarm at that point of time for me it was just any other class to keep myself fit and a kind of time pass but for her it was dream of her life, that was kick start for her career as " Fitnese Expert".
Once she changed her name i think even luck changed for her., we saw drastic changes in her and she even shifted from her mom's plc, i lost total contact literally but was getting updates from my sis as both of our sister's were friends and were in same class.
The last time i met was during her sister's house warming ceremony.
I think some 2yrs back she had plans to go to Australia for the same purpose wt she had for UK but no idea, why she dropped.
Next i saw her was on 14th night as a peaceful soul resting after tough fight with life for years, completely exhausted..longing to take entry to Heaven abode..she was almost there where she wanted to but.., i wish atleast she wud have seen the fruits bearing for her efforts..its all fate i believe.
Sharitha Balachandra
Bangalore
My name is Raj as well and I have known Ksheera for a long time. We initially met through chat and then met in person during one of my trips from Australia in 2006. I was amazed by her zeal and her enthusiasm. She was so vibrant that I could barely keep up with her and felt like I was old in comparison to her vibrancy although we were just 4 years apart.
Her two main dreams were either study in UK/US and get married to a real nice guy that would love her like nobody else.
I was sitting in on a meeting when I got the call to notify me of her death and at first I thought it was Ksheera pulling a fast one on me as I often promise that I would call her and wouldnt, and she would say - "Raj - one day I will die waiting for your call".
I am sorry sweetheart - I guess now I will have to make that call when I meet up with you sometime. Hopefully sooner rather than later.
Love you Ksheera.
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